If I've said it once, I've said it a hundred times before, you simply just can NOT fix stupid. However, today, this applies directly to me. How, you may ask, well simple I am not website creator! I don't get it. It is Greek, Latin, Russian, Swahili, and all those other impossible to understand languages rolled into one string of funky characters with intermittent words. Which is why I have failed, yet again, in the attempt to make a functioning website for my church. Praise the Lord for my extremely intelligent tech savvy best friend, Sarah, who can create websites, (she does this for a living!) and her amazing ability to be patient with me. Still, with all of that, I found myself in tears many times tonight attempting to figure it all out.
This all of course seems odd, considering what I do for a living. As a systems administrator one would think that I have the ability to understand all the geek speak that goes into creating one. Ummmm...no! Don't get me wrong, I can use systems. For instance, the web, this is a fascinating compilation of other people's hard work and I can use it! I know, doesn't quite make it better, now does it? It is amazing how I can see a DB and know what to do to get the data where it needs to be, or get it in a manageable format for someone, or troubleshoot what is broken, but I haven't the foggiest as to how to build it.
Anyway, here it is Tuesday night and I have a paper due by 6pm on Thursday, not to mention 2 chapters in the text book (yeah, the one I have yet to buy) and 2 magazine/journal articles to read prior to lecture. This all for a class that I could really care less to be taking. That of course, doesn't mean that I won't try to do well, it just means that I don't understand it. I get really agitated when I don't understand something. In fact, I get overly emotional and I take the hands off approach. In the end, though I procrastinate, I do turn the work in and I do read the required materials.
Sometimes, alright, most times, I wonder what degree I would get if I where to get a degree in something that I love doing. Again, this is where I need to put my trust in the Lord. He does have a plan for my life, I am sure of that; I just really hate the wait. - But it is through this that He is building my character; I guess mine really needs some work!