In our Bible Study we are doing Priscilla Shirer's: The Armor of God, and are just now on Week 2. First, Week 1 was intense and humbling and scary and necessary and well, just do me a favor and run out and buy it, Ok? Or better yet, grab a few of your girlfriends and journey it together. Anyway, back to Week 2; it is about the Belt of Truth. I'll skip all of her explanations (because you really should get it) and hit a couple of the highlights. To start, the belt, it wasn't an accessory. I know, belts can be so cute! Instead it was big, bulky, and structural. It was meant to support the core, or center, (picture those bulky back braces delivery drivers wear) to help one stay upright and carry a big load, if necessary. So, we'll have to skip the cuteness and accept the functionality. Next, the belt, well, it wasn't really physical. I know...shocker! This belt was and still IS so much more than that; so much more important than that -- it is the Word of God.
My mind is moving in a hundred different ways to bring you what is on my heart. Phew! Guess I really need to get this out. When I started this post, I told you that I run to myself. How many of you have done that? Still do that? It's ok if you are raising your hand no one can see you, well, unless you are in a Starbucks somewhere then that may be slightly awkward, but moving on! Week 1 we learned that the Devil is tricky and he knows our weaknesses, he knows how to paint things to look like truth and gets us (notice I didn't say makes us, he cannot make us do anything - that is how tricky he is!) to hold onto those thoughts and miss out on the real truth. You know what he knows about me? Something I'm going to share with you - I get stuck in my head. I do. I hate it. HATE. IT. I will take something that would be considered completely innocuous and turn it into 50 shades of muck and mire. I will hear what is not said, I will dissect what is said and make it not at all close to the actual meaning, I will bend it so completely that I am just certain it comes back to tell me what I've always felt true about myself. (You see what I did there?) What do I feel true about myself? I think I am nothing. I think I have little to offer and that in some way if I do not: raise perfect children, do a perfect job in my work, explain that if anything is not "right" it is due to this, that, and the other thing - most especially when they know and I know, there is no way I could have impacted the outcome anyway, fit an ideal of what everyone thinks I should be, then, well that makes me nothing. That is what my brain does. It cripples me. It keeps me in a constant state of inferiority that I live an a bubble of insecurity wrapped in "why in the world am I even alive".
And you know what? I know it isn't true. NOT A SINGLE THOUGHT OF IT! I have the Devil's card on this one. In fact, my God tells me in Jeremiah 1:5, "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you." He knew me BEFORE! And he still chose to give me life. I am alive, here today, because, again, He tells me this time in Jeremiah 29:11, " For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." You guys! Do you see?! THIS. IS. TRUTH! Not the yuck that my brain thinks up. While I may not know exactly what my future holds I do know who holds my future. How? Because His truth tells me and His truth sets me free!
Ladies, (and guys if you are reading this too), don't you see, without this truth at the center of who we are, we will never be able to carry a thing. We will fall back on whatever it is that trips us up and keeps us living in inferiority and crippled-ness. I'm not going to lie, I will struggle with this. This war, between almost 40 years of thought processes and God's word rewiring what is broken, will take work and time. But! Yes, always a but, I know this is a weakness. I know! And he has that covered. He always has it covered. In fact, 2 Corinthians 12:9-11 reminds us, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." And in this weakness of mine, if I go to the source of strength he will be there. He will always be there.
I don't know what your weakness is, and honestly this is but one of mine, but it is the biggest one which leads to all others, for me. I just want you to know that you are not without support, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I pray that today you can rest firmly in the knowledge of Christ's unending love for you and His unfaltering desire to have a close and personal relationship with you.
And hey, if we happen to cross paths and for some reason I forgot to wear my belt, just remember I'm a work in progress and God's still got this!