Monday, February 18, 2013

The Words I Would Say

For those that have followed me for a while you know about the epic level of ick I have going on in my life right now.  You know about the heartache, the pain, the tears, the...well, you just know.  You also know that when I have something that is just too much for me to handle I deal with it by writing it out.  It's a passion really, not just a way for me to express myself when I don't really want to call someone up and say it.  This makes it more personal, yet not quite so.  Yes, I am a walking contradiction.  Either that or the two halves of my brain are fighting again!  Ha!  No, really, I've had something that I'm being dealt with over.  This is something outside of my failed marriage, my wayward husband, and my tear soaked posts, yet it is something that is also a part of each of those.

God has been dealing with me, ever so gently, for a few weeks now about one thing.  At first I thought it was funny that He'd be putting the pressure on me before I even knew what it was.  But, He did.  Why?  Because He knows me.  He knows who I am.  He knows everything about me.  He made me after all.  Oh, and before you think this is one of those things that gets you off the hook because I am being brutifully honest, um....nope, he knows you the same way too!  Anyway, it started as a small nagging, and this past Sunday at church I went to the alter about it, and much to my surprise, the Pastor's message was on it.  It....I know, you're dying from the suspense.

My weaknesses.  We all have one.  We all have that thing, or in some cases things, that keep us from from really experiencing the wonderful joys and blessings the Lord has for us.  Weakness isn't necessarily a bad thing.  It can be a good thing if you channel it up; if you give it to God.  He told us,  "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." (2 Corinthians 12:9) But it is the doing and the realizing and the reacting to this truth that makes us strong - that allows his strength to win.  Truly, it is only through our relationship with Him that will give us strength.  Why?  Because when we bow to the weakness, which is really just sin, it starts to sever us from the Lord. 

And when when we begin to stray from Him the weakness completely takes over.  And when the weakness takes over we miss out on the best.  I know this because God only has the best in mind for us.  Oh, I'm not saying it is the easiest, I'm simply saying it is the best.  I know I'm being purposely vague here, it wasn't my intention to share my weakness in so many words tonight.  But don't worry, I will be doing that over the weeks and months ahead.  I know because I have a feeling it is the next chapter to the book God is writing about my life.  He's doing that for us all, you know, writing our stories.  However, some just stop letting Him before He has a chance to get them to the best part.  I don't want to miss my best part.  Honestly, I'm anxiously waiting for it.

One last thing, and only because it is what brought me to tears when I read it today in 2 Timothy, is a couple of verses I want to share. Don't worry, I've paraphrased them for you. Simply this:  Don't trust everyone you listen to, or especially what they have to say.  While being faced with your weakness you are going to have people telling  you what you want to hear, helping you justify it.  You may even seek out people for that sole purpose.  Just know, that regardless of where you go, God is already there.  Not because He wants to bring fear upon you, but because He wants to save you from yourself.

I love this song.  It is one of my all time favorites.  I think it fits today.

THE WORDS I WOULD SAY - Sidewalk Prophets
Three in the morning,
And I'm still awake,
So I picked up a pen and a page,
And I started writing,
Just what I'd say,
If we were face to face,
I'd tell you just what you mean to me,
I'd tell you these simple truths,

Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
Don't live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don't forget why you're here,
Take your time and pray,
These are the words I would say,

Last time we spoke,
You said you were hurting,
And I felt your pain in my heart,
I want to tell you,
That I keep on praying,
Love will find you where you are,
I know cause I've already been there,
So please hear these simple truths,

Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
Don't live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don't forget why you're here,
Take your time and pray,
These are the words I would say,

From one simple life to another,
I will say,
Come find peace in the Father,

Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You're going to do great things,
I already know,
God's got His hand on you so,
Don't live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don't forget why you're here,
Take your time and pray,
Thank God for each day,
His love will find a way,
These are the words I would say

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