Sunday, January 22, 2017

Day 10: I'd Hardly Call This A Challenge

Well, it seems I simply do not have the time to complete 30 consecutive days of a writing challenge.  While I admit, I was excited and a bit anxious to begin this, I am most certainly not so good at the following through of it.   Even with all of the writing prompts I have found, and believe, me there are many, many to find, I simply don't have it in me to keep at it with such fervent pace.  Actually, I think a lot of it is more the fact it seems so much like I am forcing the words to come.  There are several posts that were written to near completion that I erased because I felt the words were there simply for the sake of having words, well, there. (This is a good spot for you to inwardly thank me for sparing you the time to read them!)

Have you ever done that?  Not even with just writing, but with anything.  You get really excited and over commit yourself to something because, in the beginning, it doesn't seem like it is going to take all that much to do?  But the more you find yourself in it, you realize the time required or the effort necessary just leaves you shaking your head in utter disbelief - at yourself - for signing on to do yet one more thing?  Let's get the context of this rambling up front....I mean this solely in the framework of hobbies and activities.   Not those things in life where you actually DO need to be front and center - consistently and constantly - like say a job or marriage relationship.

I guess what I am getting at with this is that, while yes, I will complete the 30 days, it will not be in a consistent manner.  The truth of it is, I have a few other things I am working on that require more time and aren't really ready to be a "part" of this challenge.  One of them is a Bible study I am writing.  I am a bit nervous about it, I am a perfectionist after all and I am afraid it won't be perfect.  Another thing I am working on is a personal journal that will never grace the pages of this blog, but it is most certainly necessary for my more creative side.  Then there is the project I've been struggling to pull together for some time.  Not that I don't have the ideas, the means, or even possibly the time, but that I don't have the self-confidence to put it together. 

Anyhow, all that said, I suppose if I were to leave you with a small bit of wisdom or some such thing, it would be to - yes, challenge yourself, but don't do it for the sake of the challenge.  Do it for the sake of making yourself better in the challenge.


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